Thank you to everyone who welcomed me. I've had fun seeing the comments and going back and forth on whether I really want to return to this life again. I explored a lot and with a few encouraging words from someone who replied to my original post, I have e-mailed him and am hoping to hear back soon.
In the meantime, I have been exploring this site more and went and watched several of the videos someone posted links to. What a special kind of torture since I decided I would touch but not cum today!
I have been aching and dripping and touching myself for the last hour. I've found that some of my responses and even sweet spots have changed since I last was in touch with my sexual side.