I've posted a few times this year, asking for someone to help me get ahold of myself and stop masturbating to orgasm all the time. And several have replied, and I am so selfishly lusty that then I just don't answer and go back to masturbating all I want to.
I've added to that and have gone back to meeting men for sex on alt.com. I *am* getting spankings that I deserve and am serving well, but I am cumming, too. As I haven't told them that I really need to be controlled/denied in that way.
I would like someone to take control - locally if in the Seattle area. Or from a distance. And guide and instruct - so that I am getting the denial I need and punishment when I am selfish and stray.